Little --> Much

(poem written on 1-13-20)

I love memorizing Scripture

I love writing songs for verses

I love adding new verses 

What I don't love

    is when You use those verses

        to convict me of a hard truth

like    

    right

        now

I know that's one of the main purposes

    of memorizing in the first place -- 

        "that I might not sin against God"

Well, something keeps coming to mind

    and I keep trying to dismiss it as no big deal

        but the song/verse

            "One who is dishonest in a very little

                is also dishonest in much"

        keeps ringing out in my ears

            (pesky song!)

And while I can rationalize the "little," 

    I sure don't want it to lead to the "much"

Worse (to me) is that another verse has come to mind

    "Therefore confess your sins to each other

        and pray for each other

            so that you may be healed."

Which is leading me not only to "do better"

    in this matter of dishonesty

        but to confess it as sing to (gulp) my principal

As I lay awake in bed last night,

    instead of reassuring me that I didn't have to go to those lengths,

        You actually brought to mind

            additional ways I have been dishonest.

Ugh. Really?

I tried to push them out of my mind until morning

    to sort through (and rationalize) it all then

        but wouldn't you know, 

            that pesky song

                immediately came to mind in the bathroom this morning

Ugh. Double ugh.

I know that one part of fasting 

    is confessing sin

        but I don't know that I'm up for this

Will You give me courage?

Will You help me take the narrow, hard road

    even if there are consequences?

Oh, how I'd rather have transformation

                                    that is instant

                                        and sacrifice

                                    that doesn't cost me anything

Thank you for walking with me through this

                                                    through the hard

and thanks for the second part of the song

    "One who is faithful in a very little

        is also faithful in much."

Help me to be faithful in this one "little" thing

                                         You are asking me to do

            so that it will lead to...

                    much

(Oh, and here's that "pesky song")

"Faithful" by Seeds Family Worship based on Luke 16:10